I hate how it feels like I always try so hard and it never matters. It’s not that my effort goes unnoticed, but my effort doesn’t get me to the places I need to be. I didn’t get a position I wanted for next year. I need something to make me feel like I’m even a competitor. How am I going to get into medical school when everyones grades are 10x better than mine and they have awesome extra stuff to go along with it? I thought I was trying my hardest but I guess my hardest needs to be kicked up a notch…